I still remember the day I saw him for the first time. He walked into the hotel reception were I worked and my heart jumped as I laid eyes on him for the first time. If you had asked me to describe my own personal Prince Charming, this would have been it. He has short dark hair, gorgeous brown eyes and dark skin that simply melted into his crisp black shirt and long coat. Alright, maybe Prince Charming would have been slightly taller, but who was I to complain when presented with something so close to perfection?
After I noticed that I had been staring at him for quite a while I looked down and remembered my engagement ring. Whoops! Well, no harm is ever done in looking, right?
I learned that his name was Mark and that he was starting that very day as restaurant manager at the Hotel. Clearly we would be doing some work together. We both tried to work as professionals because we were in committed relationships but our minds would both often wonder and I couldn’t help but think of what it would be like to be with him, and he with me.
Mark had this charming character that I liked too well and it was not helping me at all in pushing my thoughts away from him. I often had to remind myself of the truth that I am in relationship and thinking about touching him was not an option. I continually pushed these thoughts away until one day after working together for around 6 months, something went wrong.
Mark had ended his relationship months before and slowly a strong vibe was building between us. Even our co-workers started to notice that Mark was looking at me differently, more passionately than before. The connection was so strong it was impossible to hide. I had the same feelings for him even though we never talked about it.
What could I do? I tried so hard to push those feelings aside because I was engaged and I hated the thought of adultery. I didn´t know what to do, how could I have such a strong feelings to someone else when I already was in a relationship? I thought so much about this, I had no idea what route I should take and finally I decided to concentrate on my relationship with John. I felt like I should give him and the relationship a chance even though he had already had in affair once before.
As much as I wanted my relationship with John to work out, Mark and I started to work together more and more. The late nights together really started to bring my walls down and one night my heart and my mind just utterly failed me.
We were cleaning up after a dinner party and as Mark was the restaurant manager he was the last one to leave home. All of the staff had gone home and just the two of us were finishing up. We had to get a table into a certain room and the space we had to do it was quite narrow. All of the sudden I could feel his warm breath at my neck. We stood so close to each other and as a looked in his eyes all of my common sense just disappeared.
Our lips met and never in my life had I kissed anyone so passionately, it was like magic. I’m certain this kiss would have led to more if we had not been at work! After that kiss I could feel that Mark had found a place in my heart and it looked like he was not leaving anytime soon.
Mark changed jobs shortly after this happened, not because of me, he simply got so much better job offer. I thought this might be a great opportunity to just move on, get back to my old life and forget about Mark and our kiss. But it wasn’t meant to be. I longed to hear his voice, I wanted to know more about him.
I decided to call him, he was so glad to hear from me, he did not want to call me as I was in a relationship. We talked about all and nothing for more than an hour and not just that one evening, the next evenings after as well. I sank so deep in desire for him that I decided to meet with him. My heart pounded when I met him again. I had missed him so very much. He took me in his arms and it felt like being home. I simply sank into him and the next few hours I was high on love.
My heart now belonged to Mark but I was devastated by what I was doing to John, the man I lived with and has promised to marry. How could I do such a thing to someone I cared about?
I had to have time to think, and although Mark didn’t want to let me go, we said goodbye for a while. I needed time and space to gather my thoughts and examine where my head and heart were at. I missed Mark deeply during this time and often checked in with him. He missed me as well and told me over and over how he wanted me back in his arms.
I took me seven long months to figure out that I wasn’t doing John any favors by marrying him if I didn’t love him. I cared about him and his feelings but I was no longer in love with him. There was no way I could walk down the aisle with a man I didn’t love and it was time to tell him.
John and I separated and divided our things. Eventually he found out about Mark on his own and boy was he mad at me! He went crazy calling me at all hours. At first I felt so guilty that I allowed him to call me repeatedly and talking badly to me and about me. But eventually it had to stop. I told him it was time for him to get over the situation and take some of the responsibly for our failed relationship himself.
Finally after that call he let go of me. He wrote me a letter and said that he could see that I loved Mark as he himself loves me, he hoped for me to have a good life and that he would leave me alone. Reading his letter was both hard and so much relief, finally I could start my new life.
Mark is truly a prince; he waited for me patiently all that time! He is my soul mate and beset friend and I wouldn’t wish to go through a day in this life without him by my side. We have now been together for 13 happy years and have brought into this world three adorable children. I now consider myself the luckiest person alive and I love my life with all its difficulties!Tweet